i just changed my background music to "Eyes On Me" by Faye Wong. She's pretty. I have pictures of her in my gallery....and its from FFVIII!!! w00!! okay...well anyway i will change the layout as soon as i get unlazy..........C'MON UNLAZINESS!!

oh well. te amo mis pollitos!

waaaaaaaahhhHahahahah!!!!!  I sent an e-mail to the author of Dating Games and he wrote me back!!! w00!!! I wish I knew when his next signing was so I could stalk him! I have two or three more books by him in mind that I wanna read.

>__< So he asks me....

+him: well what did that note mean if it didnt mean for me to leave you alone what did it mean

>>me: it was sayin dat things have changed since i met you, yes, and i've done some stupid things that i promised myself i would never do over a boy and all that, (etc etc and i went on explaining it how i've done a million and one times)

+ ...so why didnt you tell me this when i first asked you? after all this time i've had to think about it it's made my feelings for you fade when we coulda put a stop to all this that day.

>> I tried! I told you so many times but i guess you just weren't hearing it

+ maybe i was too mad to listen....but i'm gonna go to sleep now i'll talk to you later(he always goes to sleep when he's mad or needs to think alone GRRRR)

and that was it.  evern before this convo i kept makin jokes and he got mad because they were about him and his girlfriend and us and all that. i wanted to say F*CK YOU AND DAT D*MN STUPID GIRL....but i didn't! Aren't you proud of me, puddin? ^___^

But anyway look at these! Theyre funny

Others are funny but they are sex related so i dunno if i'm allowed to put them on here :/

Well, I wrote my ex this long letter because he wanted to know how i felt rite...but this is after the face that i wrote this letter to him about ever since we started goin together a lot of stuff change in my life and he took that as he ruined my life i guess it came out wrong or he just read it wrong....but anyway so i wrote him tellin him how i much i didnt mean to hurt his feelings and love him anyway but it seems like it doesn't matter. im not gonna post what i wrote cuz its corny and im a lil embarrassed lol and its just too long anyway mis pollitos. anyway this is what he wrote back:

ayo its lik dis, u hurt my feelins when u said dat ever since i came into ur life, etc. dat kinda changed da way i felt bout u cause if i messed up ur lif da way u put it, y r u still talkin to me, but its lik i wanna be friends, but i dont wanna be friends, im confused, cause what if we go out, when we have a arguement, u say mean stuff, lik u said, and den we brake up, den brittany is still a big part of my life, but dont get me wrong u is to, i still love u and got mad love 4 u, but da way i love u have really changed cause of what u said, i love u more as friend den i did as a girlfriend now, i mean i dont wanna hurt ur feelins but dat note really mad eme sit back and think, lik dang if she feelin dis way, maybe i need to let her move on and have a better lif since i messed it up lik dat, i kno what u said in da note, but dats what im thinkin, but i dont kno, call me when u read dis, i still love u, PUNK

AHHHH!!! i do wanna be his friend but i also wanna be wit him!!! oh...he called me punk cuz i always call him a punk too but anywho i want him to be happy and i dont wunna stalk him because thats ridiculous but the moment we make a decision that we're gonna leave each other alone he wants me back *sigh* I've never felt like this before. I don't usually act stupid like this!! I just want to come to a conclusion. I want him to either be with me or leave it alone. [PREFERABLY BE WITH ME AND LEAVE BRITTANY ALONE] but hey....what can ya say? Hopefully he will realize after a while that he would rather be with me and break up with her. oh well.

On the phone it wus like:

[him]how are you feelin?

i'm not feelin like anything[me trynna act like i dont care]

[him]*sigh* no, really how are you feelin about this. don't say nothin either cuz i know that's what you're about to say.

[me]well...i'm tryin not to think about it but...i feel played. i mean i feel all this for you and done all this for you for nothing

[him] *sigh* what do you mean

[me]well, u still wanna be with brittany rite?

[him] yeah--

[me]and you said u love me like a friend rite? and your feelings for her are stonger rite?

[him] well, yeh but i still love you. i love you like a friend more now because of what you said. dat really did hurt my feelings. that made me feel like we should just be friends, but i still love you.

[me]*sigh* {big pause} well you want to be wit her rite?

[him] yeah...

[me] well, i'm a big girl. ill be aight.

[him] stop that. stop sayin that.

then after a while of that nonsense he said he had to go so he could go get a haircut. im not gonna answer when he calls back. even tho i kinda wanna talk to him i don't because it's gonna make me sad. I'm TIRED OF THIS MESS!!! This game needs to stop. He needs to make up his mind!!!

Yes!!! I finally got my cell phone cover on...I thought I was gunna break somethin if I kept pullin at it but it just popped off Anyway...and its spring break!! Yes!!! I forgot to finish my Spanish test so I hope she lets me finish it when we get back....I'm gonna be so mad if she doesn't. She said to come at lunch or afterschool but I couldnt come afterschool and I forgot at lunch...Plus we only had a little bit of time because we had an assymbly at the end of the day--which made the classes shorter, so we would have time for it.

It was about the the DANGERS OF DRIVING. I thought it was going to be corny but it was actually pretty good. All throughout the day to prepare for it, they took random people from classes and "killed" them in a car accident. The people would walk around not speaking to anyone with face paint on and wearing a sign telling how they died. Then at the assymbly they told a story about someone that died in a car accident and then made up their own story and had a little car accident. The car looked like it had been smashed pretty good and there was smoke comin from it and the characters were in the car "injured" with "blood" on em n everything and one girl got out and was checking to see if her friends were okay until she finally collapsed too and the police, EMS and a hellocopter came and did what they would do in the situation. And then the narrator told the after story and all that good stuff. The girl that was driving had good insurance but, one of the parents sued her so they couldn't use that and they had to make payments on the hospital bill and car and all that for a real long time and had to sell their house and all this other stuff happened. For my school thats a BIG PLUS because its in a rich neighborhood but they never spend any of that money. I was quite pleased.

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