weeeeeee i am moving out june 23 ^^ yay i should hae a prty or somehting ^^ sushi ^^ well yay

my name on gaia is Teko Chan ^^ pm me ^^

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... well here it is not really a rant i guess but a lot has happend in my life inthe past 2 weeks i feel really horrible and crappy about though on the surface i look and seem happy and ok. things are like this i have a bf and we have known each other 3 years and going out for a year i love him very much and he loves me and i will be 18 in july 29 i only get to see him everyother weekend adn talk to him everyother weekend yet he still wants to go out with me (( its my fault i cant see him my parents are lame )) in november i got preg. unplanned and with protection so yea thats lame also i am against abortion unless you get raped me and him love each other though so yea yes i know i am only 17 and he is 18 this was both our first time except me. Something very bad happend to me when i was 15 which makes this not my frist /cry (( my parents dont know they would dissown me)) anyway moving on i was preg. if my dad found out he owuld make me get an abortion so i decided to take care of it myself without him finding out ...((-.-)) things didnt go to plan i asked my sister to help me (( she is 19 )) but instead she told her classmate who has 4 kids and put me o a guilt trip (( the only reason i was doing this was for my dad not to know )) i was seriously thinking of getting very fat so they wouldnt notice (( didnt work )) so my sister told my parents and my mom told me its my choice blah blah then tells me i hav eto tell my dad (( my dad is verystrict greek )) so ye ai would rather die bu tlove my freinds and bf and too much of a chicken wuss to commit suicide anyway i tell my dad he says i have to get an abortion if i dont he will throw my bf in jail so yea basically i hav eno choice then the next morning he tells me the decision is mine but he will dissown me and id hav eto live at my moms (( my oarents are devorced and she is the last person you want a kid to be raised around ... trust me you dont want me to get into it...)) so yea its either live ont eh street with a kid(( me and my bf could not support ourselves living in sandiego by ourselves its hella expensive>< )) so then my mom tells me i hav eto get an abort. and if i dont she wont help me so yea there ya go also i would like to not piss both my parents off adn keep relationship with my dad now after i get it done i feel like crap i am not aloud to even see my bf at all i can only talk to him everyother weekend and he doesnt have a good enough graphix card to play ffxi yet (( he should this weekend)) so yea after i get is done my father tells me that since i love my bf i could have lept it he would have just made me marry him (( i have no problem with this cause we both lvoe each other )) i feele ubber depressed and horrible cause i killed my own kid and my 5 brother and sister tease me about it .... gotta love your family eh

I need to make 830 dollars by june wish me luck i only make 60 bucks a month>< the bathroom is looking pretty inviting  /grin yea and when i move out i need to make 1365 dollars a month fun eh ? yea new job here i come!!! hopefully but yea sorry to all of you i have been mena to lately i am not in the best of moods lately no da ? life is sucky right now and i have to much to do i mean doesnt it show in my sucky site ><

omg i am addicted to ffxi omg i just got my chocobo need to lvl whm ><;; ack well yea i talk to you all later

lord burns awarded me the mosst interesting name award yay /clap  /bow

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