Lately, I've been spending an awfully large amount of time. This has been causing me to fall behind in my work and the things I wish to accomplish this summer. Granted, I haven't really said much on here as it is, since I've been using other sites more frequently. However, the point is that I am trying to make something of my time, rather than squander it here in front of my computer. A very good friend of mine gave me a reality check, and the time to change is now. So, in an effort to control/ limit my fruitless online excursions, I am taking my online time down to about an hour a day, which will fall generally in the evening. I know most of you understand, and I hope the rest of you come to see that this is for the best. Salutations to all of you. Au Revoir.

Approximately one entire month has passed since I last updated this thing. What has happened in that time, you may ask? TONS. I finished my first year in college, so that's taken care of. I've been out for about two weeks, doing absolutely nothing in the process. Well, I can't say that is entirely true. My first week out I went down to visit people in North Carolina, spending one night in Charlotte and three in Wilmington. Good times were had by all, I'd say. After returning to my hometown, I took up my old job at the movie theater, which I have to work in a bit, come to think of it. I've viewed several movies for free, including Unleashed, Sahara, and Kicking and Screaming. I also previewed Star Wars Episode III at 8:30pm, then dressed up in Anakin-esque attire to attend the actual midnight showing. I need to find myself a second job to make as much money as I can this summer, so I have something to show when I head back up to college. That about wraps it up for me, besides trying to get my computer fixed and suffering from lack of friendship around here. I might just end up giving up on this blog, since I don't have time for it, or am not readily popping messages in. Oh well. Later~

P.S.  And then I found 5 dollars.

Ah yes, yet another Strongbad reference. How true it is, even though I still HAVE my computer working, and not sitting here with a big shotgun hole in it. Anyways, now to the meat of my topic. Lately I've been having alot of trouble with the people I knew from back home and our discussions on the internet. They tell me things that I didn't want to know, or things that upset me because I don't see why they chose to do what they did. It's not a wake up call, because I know these things happen. But I guess I never figure it would hit so close to home so often. I can't make people change their ways, I can only tell them how I feel about it and why I do.

On a different note, school is coming to a close ALL TOO SOON. Not that I'm not happy about leaving. There's just SO MUCH to be done yet, and I have what seems like no time to do it. A stagecraft project here, a humanities paper there. Throw in my finals to study for and you come up with one heck of a busy two weeks. However, I still need to get into contact with my parents and let them know what I plan on doing this summer. AND PACK. Craziness. Well, that's my "short" update for the moment. Later~

Everything seemed fine. What happened these last few days???? Today of all days especially. My scene in Acting II apparently didn't run particularly well, and I really need to try and get the rest of the dialogue into my head. Along with that, I need to re-figure out who my character is. Add that to the list of things piling up for this weekend. I have a powerpoint to complete by Sunday for a digital media project. I have an hour quiz on Monday for humanities, over everything we've covered this semester. I also must type a paper this weekend for that class, due Monday. Besides that, I have to complete my taxes and practice my acting scene once more. Oh yeah, and I can't forget about making my class schedule by Tuesday. AND I need to finish making sketches of size proportions and shapes for the stagecraft project I'm working on.

As I was saying at the beginning, today just went down the crapper. First was Acting II, then came the announcement of the graphic design winner. I didn't make any of the top 3. Then I ran over to the theater office after lunch to see about the VB Center program I applied for. I didn't get that either, but my roommate did. Good for him, but it doesn't help me feel any better. Alright, I'm now kinda exhausted from typing it out. I hope you all are happy I finally added since about three weeks ago. Later~

Why does it seem that most of the people I correspond to or have ties to seem to not want to talk to me anymore? Apparently it's me, or other things dealing with time constraints. That's all I ever deal with nowadays, or so it seems.   I wish I could make it up to them, but plans go awry and things change. It seems I have to just go with the flow and let my life be as it will be. Yeah, like I haven't said THAT one before. Seriously though, over spring break I had to consider what in my life is necessary and what I even want anymore. Never a fun task.

But hey, I updated the background pic and music. And I saw "Be Cool" and "Robots" in the last week. Both I considered fun movies . So, I guess I'll send this one out there for you all to deal with. Later~

As you can see, the theme remains the same, but the background picture/ music has been altered. Just thought it'd be time to make a change. Plus the music seemed to fit well with my character.

Apparently that's me... that's all I am anymore. An awkward boy hiding behind the facade of power and masking any recognizable parts. Never letting anyone truly know who I am... afraid of getting hurt, and hurting them in the process. I can never decide on what I want. I need to accept the things that are before me, rather than let them slip away. Just as Peter almost loses MJ, so too might I lose all I hold close to me..... maybe I already am.

Later~

The title pretty much explains it all. This week is my midterms, right before I go on spring break. Woo.... hoo..... In fact, I just got back from taking my Health lecture exam. Blew REALLY badly, I'm afraid to say. It was 68 questions, 3 of them bonus. I have a feeling I didn't do very hot on it. Probably should have studied more... :shrug: Well, its over and done with, so no use crying over it. Yet.

Next up is my digital media midterm tomorrow. Granted, all that class has consisted of so far was us just chatting and a little lecturing on "Baby Bells" like Verizon and SBC. Apparently, the teacher is giving us the same thing as TCOM101. I must review the 8 page study guide and read the sections in the book that coincide (and we got those pages YESTERDAY). Besides those two, I have a math exam Thursday over two chapters. That is actually the least of my worries, since its all practically review for me.

Still not over this cough. I was sick two weeks ago and every so often I start coughing a bit. Yay... gotta see a doctor, I guess. You know, if its not one thing, its another.

Finally, come Friday afternoon, my spring break officially begins. What I'm going to do is STILL yet to be determined. Hopefully it'll be discussed the next night or so. I've got two stops to make and somehow I'll do it. Alright, that about wraps me up for now. Later~

This day started off on the wrong foot. First off, I turned my alarm off at 8:35 and kept sleeping. Bad choice. I ended up waking up, looking at my watch and bolting out of bed. Since my class starts at 10, it was not great to see that it was already 10:15. I quickly got dressed and ran to class, which was halfway done. We finished up improv in Acting II and then I went to take my knots quiz in Stagecraft. I couldn't get the bowline knot for awhile.... I think I was taught wrong the first time. But the rest I got out no problem, yet my grade was still 44 out of 50. I will probably try to do more hours for stagecraft lab to get extra points.

So now I'm just sitting here, typing this before I head to my last class for the day. Once thats over, lunch is a good idea before I come back to crash til 5. That's about it. Later~

To explain my view of life in general sometimes, I have the lyrics to a song that seems to tell alot better than I can right this moment. So here is Simple Plan's "Crazy".

Tell me what's wrong with society
When everywhere I look, I see
Young girls dying to be on TV
They won't stop till they've reached their dreams

Diet pills, surgery
Photoshopped pictures in magazines
Telling them how they should be
It doesn't make sense to me

Is everybody going crazy?
Is anybody gonna save me?
Can anybody tell me what's going on?
Tell me what's going on?
If you open your eyes
You'll see that something is wrong

I guess things are not how they used to be
There's no more normal families
Parents act like enemies
Making kids feel like it's World War III

No one cares, no one's there
I guess we're all just too damn busy
And money's our first priority
It doesn't make sense to me

Is everybody going crazy?
Is anybody gonna save me?
Can anybody tell me what's going on?
Tell me what's going on?
If you open your eyes
You'll see that something is wrong

Is everybody going crazy?
Is everybody going crazy?

Tell me what's wrong with society
When everywhere I look I see
Rich guys driving big SUVs
While kids are starving in the streets

No one cares
No one likes to share
I guess life's unfair

Is everybody going crazy?
Is anybody gonna save me?
Can anybody tell me what's going on?
Tell me what's going on?
If you open your eyes
You'll see that something, something is wrong

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