have you ever had one of those days when everything's just going pretty well and stuff...and you should be wicked happy, but instead you feel kinda depressed? this is what has been happening to me for the past few days....and i have no idea why....i mean, all my test scores were pretty awesome, my bf and i have a relatively good relationship, and stuff like that....my god....i'm going to go out of my mind....

*sigh* yay i'm so HAPPY....cuz for once, the majority of the things in my life are going right, like the senior district audition results were most likely mixed up so that means that i WAS supposed to get in, i'm actually doing really good in school, i just got an ipod nano (totally awesome i know ^_^), and also something that really isn't that big...but...i finished my math report!!! it was assigned like a looong time ago, and i totally forgot about it until like friday, and i was like OMG I NEED TO FINISH IT!!! then it took two and a half solid days to finish it...like i really didn't do anything other than eat, sleep, etc. and work on my report...AND NOW IT'S FINISHED!!! YAY!!! anyway yeah ok i'm done blabbing now...lol

yay check out my gallery thing...i FINALLY got some pics in there, even though i look like crap in them...but that's ok ^^. well, school's started, and seriously, i'm like so disappointed. cuz you know, like when you're younger and stuff, you're always looking forward to going to high school, cuz it's where like all the 'big kids' are, and stuff like that....so i was really looking forward to it. but now that i'm actually in high school, it's kinda like wow it's not really much....know what i mean? anyways...yeah...i'm bored...

yeah i think i'd better start packing for the gbyso music camp, since i'm leaving tuesday morning.....yeah the other day me and a couple friends walked to town center, and got ice cream...yay. then we walked to emerson field, and like invaded the playground, and the little kids were still scared of us even though we tried talking to them and everything....and then one of my friends started dumping woodchips in my hair, throwing grass at me, and hitting my ankles while i was trying to sleep -_-". yay i went shopping the other day at the mall....so i got this really really awesome turquoise and black halter dress and a red glittery lacy top for the fashion show that one of my classes is having at jrp. and also i got this wicked cute orange and red striped halter type bikini, and it's adorable!! except i don't like stripes, but oh well. yeah you can probably tell that i'm pretty much bored right now....that's why i'm telling everyone what i bought the other day...so anyways yeah i gotta go now....

yes the title explains it all....i'm very bored right now...seriously, there is nothing, like nothing, at all, to do. don't you hate it when it rains during the summer? like summer's just not the time for raining...it should be during the spring or fall....hmm...i want it to be halloween for some reason...i dunno, that just occured to me...kinda just as a random thought....omg I'M SO BORED!!! *dies of boredom*....god there's like nobody on-line that i wanna talk to...if anyone's willing to talk to someone....please, please, pretty pretty please....IM me....oh yeah sn's sakurastars99....

well, i'm back from the pageant....and now i'm officially sick and tired of planes...omg tennessee was soooooo hot and humid, it was like totally unbearable....some of the sweethears (that's what we were called, cuz we were all in this sweetheart pageant) were like practically on the verge of fainting....including me....but the baseball game and the water park were fun....the little kids were sooooooo cute when they asked for autographs and everything....it was also a little weird too, cuz wherever we went people kept on staring at us like they were thinking who are these crazy girls parading around wearing crowns and sashes? it was also kinda funny.....well, i'll soon be off to fencing....toodles!!! <--what just made me say that again??? oh well...

i'm at the library right now...isn't the library supposed to be a quiet place? well, it isn't here...with all those little kids yelling and laughing....and i really can't read at all with all that noise going on, so i guess i'll just do a blog thing...god i'm so embarassed....my mom gave me her cell phone, and it suddenly just went off like a few minutes ago...anyway, i have no idea where everyone is....seriously, am i the only one that's not gone off to like florida or something? oh well....at least i'm heading off to tennessee next week....hmmm...i'm bored....i think i'll try reading again...

i've discovered that my mom's right about something that she once said to me quite a while ago....not to start relationships too soon. a few months ago, i would've thought that it was ridiculous. i would've thought, 14 isn't that young, is it? seriously, look at my friends; they're perfectly happy with their bf's, right? now, i know how wrong i was...i should've just concentrated on other things, instead of getting involved in relationships. i'm too young, too stupid, too foolish, too eager to grow up, too inexperienced, too trusting, and too irresponsible. i have no idea what to do when problems come up, and i don't know who to turn to. maybe i should follow my mom's advice: stop wasting my energy on things that i don't need to be bothered with, and wait till i'm in my junior or senior years in high school or in college. i suppose that's not such a bad idea....at least that way, i can avoid getting myself hurt, as well as hurting other individuals....