Haven't you ever just wanted to scream for help?  You look around and there is no one there.  I mean there are People there, its just that they are not the right people.  How many people can you tell a secret.  Okay out of those people how many can you help with thier problems.  Out of those people how many people do you confess your issues with.  When I do this little exercise I always come up with the number zero.  This isn't to say nobody cares about me, nothing can be farther from the truth.  Its just that I don't let anybody get to close, close enough so they see, see pass my smiles and absurd comments, those comments that so many find funny, yet I find them my last foundation of sanity.  You see, when you put yourself in a predicament like I have done with myself, you have to start looking for other problem solving methods.  These are usually not so good, and I do not recommend anyone trying anything deemed, unhealthy behavior.  This usually causes more problems in the end.  When those become untouchable, meaning you are resisting the temptation of such temporary cures, then one starts to think.  In this time I have come to the conclusion that one must have at least one confidant with whom they can have assist them in the purging of emotions.  Otherwise you are trapped.  Trapped in prison created by yourself.  That is what my poem was about.  Well thanks for listening.

-Malifisis Demonicus-

Im sitting here trying to think of something interesting to write about.  I've got it.  How about I list some of favorite bands, and list why I love them!

My Chemical Romance: Always evolving no defined genre

Mindless Self Indulgence: Insane lyrics, awsome beats.

Wumpscut: Again great sounding music, can't understand it though?

Marilyn Manson: Great lyrics and love the dark sound.

The Cure: There should be no explanation

Blink 182: Grew up listening to these guys.

Green Day: Same case as Blink 182

Children of Bodom: Love the synth/guitar solos great muisic and fascinating lyrics.

Cradle of Filth: Ok these men are gods.  I love the lyrics, mostly sad romantic stories, they sound like they came from the past, and you've got to love Dani's variety of vocals.

The Pixies: Great sound, they are the grandfathers of grunge.

Nirvana: the champions of grunge.

Nine Inch Nails: Songs can be very emotional,yet have a great sound to them, and are in no way repetative.

Linkin Park: I'm sorry, one of my guilty pleasures.

The Offspring: Probably the greatest revival punk band of the 90's.  Such a variety of sounds over time.

The Ramones: If you love punk you are obsessed with these fine gentlemen.

The Dead Kennedys: Greatest punk lyrics to date, great surf sound.

The Beatles: No comment.

Aqua: You have to love them, by the way there are better songs then barbie girl.

Malice Mizer: Sexy jappanese men

Moix dis Moix: More sexy jappanese men

Dir en grey: even more!

Slipknot: Just make you feel good about yourself.

Avirl Lavigne: another guilty pleasure

AFI: Davey Havoc=orgasmic

Ill add to this list over time.

-Malice Mizer-

I dispise labels with the upmost intensity.  Nobody is "emo" "goth" or even "gangster" in my mind.  I believe that everyone is thier own unique self, and that it embodies different characteristics.  Some people embody others stronger then different people would.  So, yes, I guess I could be labeled as goth or emo or whatever you wanted to, but I just see myself as somebody who is different from any other person, but I share some of the same characteristics.  This is not meant to offend anyone, I you prefer having a "label" that is up to you, but I think when you slap them upon people who do not necessarily want them that is wrong.  Goodbye my dear fellows.

-Malifisis Demonicus-

Locked inside a prison

Unable to escape

Created by your mind

Which is your only friend

Only enemy.

Now you finally find a key

 A passage out of hell

But your pass comes with pain

to all of those you love

Do you take the road to freedom

Or do you lie quitely in your cell.

Suffering day after day

With unbearable pain

Pretending to be okay.

By now your thinking

"I would use the key"

And save yourself from pain

But if you leave your cell

Without any notice,

You will trap others.

The one's you love

And hold dear to your heart

WIll become the new prisoners

your escape from there

will cause their minds

To create themself a prison

So in the end it is you choice

Now take a stand and raise your voice.

Never die in your wake

the shadows fall in life's quake

thruough disease and dispair

Good seems to glare

Watch all that was dark

And mad raving stark

comes to the end of its time.

Now what is there?

A question you dare

To ask for a reply.

For where art thy?

In your minds eye.

Lost never to be found

An shall I begin

The tale of the end

Whild Chlidren begin

to cry?

The tale has length

but at the same time brief

As in true will all

It begins with a man

Near the end of his life

Lying in the dark and Quiet

As he begins to sleep

And fall into his dreams

The end of his world...

... Begins

He falls into

The shades of blue

The opalescense of life.

And thus he falls

into hell,

With nothing except his strife

What moral may be

From this tale make-believe?

You quitely ask yourself

It is that life is too short

And death can be quick

So reserverve you life candle's wick.

Wow, my handwriting really is bad, ohh well.

So here I am writing my first bloggy thingy majigy and I will make a list of random thoughts.  Well here it goes.

• Does jesus have two left toes
• What if god choked on a peanut
• I wonder how fast the cow can jump over the moon
• Why is the sky up and not down
• I like rice!
• Chikcens go buck buck
• Cows go MOOOOOOO!!!!
• Malted milkballs taste funny.
• Wouldn't it be funny if someene was trying to commit suicide, then decidce not too, only to commit suicide by accident, eg somone wants to jump off a bridge, decides not to, and then slips and falls.
• Why did people come up with short cuts like LOL ROFL OMG OMFG Isn't easier just to write those phrases.
• How invented the flame throwerer.
• Does anyone notice that there seem to be very few gay anime guys.
• I like pie and toast.
• Purple people pilfered peter's pants!
• Grammer is important... YALL.
• You know what they say...  because I don't
• What would happen if you fused a pigeon and gnarles Barkley together.
• Do you like ketchup on the side?
• I wish I had the thingy majigy
• My brain hurts
• BYE
• SOLONG
• farewell
• ALVIETUSEN GOODNIGHT
• Demonic Angels and Angelic Demons will clash in an epic battle

So anyway it was nice writing this,

Malifisis Demonicus