it's been a while since i've written anything...
hmmm...
let's see...
that stupid boy i called my bf is no more... he's a cocksucking coward...
the boy i was gonna marry and the girl he's been with since after me broke up!!! yay!!! i know i shouldn't be happy about this but i can't help it... after being broken up for 3 years i still love him... what can you do right???
my bday was the 21st and the night before i celebrated at work...the bartender, barback, and bouncer plotted against me to get me drunk... they suceeded... fucking bastards... i had fun though and everyone at the club pitched in to get me a great upgrade for my comp... yay... the parts will be here by fri so i can rebuild it!!! yay!!! note... never mix absolute and rumplmintz... bad combo ;)
i have a date!! yay!!! this boy is taking me to warped tour wed... i didn't wanna go with a boy at all it's hard to meet ppl and flirt when your with a boy.. but if it weren't for him i wouldn't be going and i haven't missed a year in 7 years... it would be bad luck if i did you know... oh oh oh and this one isn't a nazi.. yay...
maybe this one will go good.. i don't think he's bf material though... well i guess i can't say that yet but... i dunno.. he's cute and all... and i have fun hanging out with him at work the whole 2 times he's been there... so i guess we'll see how it goes...
i guess that's all for now...
over and out...
so i let this boy take me to breakfast after work tonight... he's been asking me to meet up for him for a week or two now... so i was like sure... why not... i need to meet new people... anyways... this kid (ok maybe not kid... he's 32) so anyways this kid is cool to talk to and all and likes some of the same stuff i do... he's kinda cute i guess... anyways... he turns out to be a fucking nazi!!! why me??? i can't ever win can i??? i mean i can't discriminate against him cause that would make me as bad as him... you know... but why can't i catcha break??? why does there always haveta be some flaw??? damnit!!!
so i've been working and working and i still can't make enough money... this sucks!!!
anyways... how come boys are soooo damn dumb??? i was talking to this boy and he just got on my nerves so i quit answering my phone and most of his ims... i told him i couldn't talkto him cause my boyriend is visiting me and all this shit... i thought he finally got a clue and was gonna stop... then last night he starts im-ing me again talking about how he needs to see me and can he please just come over... blah blah blah... here's a clue... if a girl is ignoring you and avoiding you... stop trying to see her!!! is all very stalkerish to me... you know???
so tomorrow starts production of the rap video the company i work for is shooting... it goes on all weekend... i can just imagine how much my arm is gonna be hurting from holding the camera all weekend... i'm just gonna be happy when we've got it all edited and done and in rotaion on BET... that's gonna rock... even though i don't watch that channel it's gonna be cool to have something i worked on on there you know??? that is all over and out
i think i'm gonna die from working soooo damn much... 2 goddammn jobs... i've been working sooo damn much i haven't even been able to get laid!!! i'm gonna go nuts!!! must stop working sooo damn much
so i went o fl and got my babies!!! i'm sooo happy to have em back!!! i didn't get to see my bf :( cause he had to go to ft. lauderdale to see his sick friend... i did however meet his gf... she cute... and i know they've well... done it...but i can't be jealous cause it's an open relationship to begin with... and well it's not like it's all that serious anyways you know??? anyways... of to work i go i go...
i'm really worried about my bf...he's extemley in self desruct mode right now... and i can't be there till sun to be with him.... but what am i gonna do when i come back???