The Chemicals running through my brain,

I'm on the drug called love;

I close my eyes I feel insane,

You're all I can dream of;

Can no words express the pain,

When I can't feel your touch?

Sitting in darkness, I say your name;

I call out Andrea.

I talk to you when you're nto there,

I wish you could hear me;

My mind's eye sees your straight blonde hair,

I wish you were near me;

I can see your skin so fair,

I see it so clearly;

I can hear your cute little laugh,

It begins to cheer me;

Suddenly I'm not so sad,

I feel no pain at all;

-Then the phone rings-

I answer the call;

It's you, I recognize your voice,

I hear you laugh and I have no choice,

But to laugh, (my sadness is gone completely);

When you speak to me so softly, so sweetly.

For you sweetheart... even though it could be better, I'm kinda lazy today, so this is the best you get. Anyway, I still love you, in fact even more now then when I first discovered this phenomenon...sigh... I can't wait to come home... in the words of Metallica's Kirk Hammett... it will be "Muy Fuckin Bueno... GRACIAS!"

A friend once told me (as recently as a few minutes ago) a short phrase, containing some very good advice. He said "Hey... you take it easy; and... uhhhh... masturbate often... and... ummmm... listen to Stratovarius." I took this very close to heart, and will follow this advice most likely until the day I die. This was especially monumental advice, when you consider who it was given by. This seriously heavy knowledge was set down upon me by none other than Lord Byron Finch himself. This guy is definitely a man of few words, but when he speaks, all will listen or pay the price. What price you ask? The price of ignorance, because you need to know what this kid has to say. For example, he was once quoted to have said "If you ever go to Switzerland, don't drive in those alps..."; on a seperate occasion "Im a finch; am I golden house finch, or a purple finch?". See what I mean? No need for any further explanation bitches. Just know that when this kid speaks its either gonna be awesome, or really fucking dumb.

Today I am feeling kind of sad and unsettled. I think it is because I really miss my girlfriend and because I think I am falling in love with her. I am facing a problem however, because I don't know how to determine love. I wish i knew. Luckily for me I have someone very special who I can discuss things with... she just happens to be the one i think I am falling in love with. Well I told her about this and she was very helpful. At first i was sad because she didn't seem to match my feelings, but I think she does. I think that love means something more to her, than it does to me, because she's had a lot more love in her life. What I am associating with love is the trust I feel i have with her, and the honesty between us. I have never felt anything close to this with another girl. The way she makes me feel is unmatched. When I say the words "I love you" to her in my head, I feel complete. Maybe one day I will say it aloud, and she will say it back. I am o.k. with her not being in love with me, because it may happen, and if it does, it will mean much more. It would great if she was the first person in my life that I fell in love with because I trust that she would not ultimately make my life hell. Other than missing her, my life is o.k.; I drown out my discomfort with intoxication. It makes the time pass...

One day I will have mutual love, but for now I hope I have at least found the one who I will love... even if she never loves me back. Finding her has also made me feel closer to my best male friend, because I understand him a little better now, but I am not sad, and he is. I am insired to write music, and he likes to write music on the subject which I am inspired. We should collaborate... 

Well, I'm not terribly inspired to write about anything right now, but i figured i would since I started my account. Well alots been happening lately. Im in a new place and state of mind these days. I dont feel like writing so much right now so i will save all my stories for later.