I got 20$ today and tomrrow I'm goin to get my cell back! yeah!

ps

never IM in a bad mood

at school I was in a bad mood....i just want to burn the school down!!!!

then my mood switch to normal and I was on the computer for a while.....

then later went with my brother (ALLEN) to pick up my other brother (ERICK) from work.....I wish I have drive..

but while we were on our way to pick him up me and my brother were counting how many times I feel or hurt myself.   that was funny!

then I came back hoping that I can talk on the ceel phone but my mom has it.....I want my cell back!!!! just need 10 more $ and I can have it again!!!

 yup. one day I'm not going to be able to handle life anymore and just end up killing my self and go to hell...

I almost alway feel like I really dont have anyone to be with. [I'm by myself...] and no one give a care about me. 

I'm pretty much locked in my own houes, and when I finally say something, no one hears me out. 

Just becaues I'm the little one in the houes doesnt mean I cant do things too! I can actully think and talk now! damn I'm 14 about to be 15 no shit I'm goin to be able to that kind of stuff!!

so like I said before: I'm not going to be able to handle life anymore and just end up killing my self and go to hell...

 I wish I can really kill/ hurt someone without getting in trouble...o well

on firday:

 I went to liz's houes and made stupid videos with her video cam...and played silent hill 4 

what a stupid-fun day

saturday:

 I felt so depressed and grumpy dont fell like talking bout it...

sunday/ today:

 woke up depressed....was online for a while...(3:something p.m.)then went to church and stay there till around 8:50 somethingp.m...

(it was fun...)

today at school we had to do testing, but I didnt have to (me and a group of other people) ... !!

~*~later*~*

School is over!! I get home and I'm locked out(no ones home), I look for windows that are open there is not one open. okay. I go to my friend's houes (liz) who livesa few doors down. stay there for a while....go back home and still I'm locked out and no ones homes.

so check the back door...caues I just remember about that, locked. okay. stupid door. I'm mad.  I ended up kicking a soccer ball to a window.  oops, oh well. I'm in! Yeah!

I get on the computer, what felt like 3 mins later my mom comes home, tells me to get off and go to a friends houes...I go:

" nooo I dont wanna."

I end up goin anyways 3 hours later come home...my brother (eirck) is still not home and he's been at a 'friends' houes for two days already and yeah...the rest is alot of drama....

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