Lead to the river
Midsummer, I waved
A 'V' of black swans
On with hope to the grave
All through Red September
With skies fire-paved
I begged you appear
Like a thorn for the holy ones

Cold was my soul
Untold was the pain
I faced when you left me
A rose in the rain
So I swore to the razor
That never, enchained
Would your dark nails of faith
Be pushed through my veins again

Bared on your tomb
I am a prayer for your loneliness
And would you ever soon
Come above unto me?
For once upon a time
From the binds of your lowliness
I could always find
The right slot for your sacred key

Six feet deep is the incision
In my heart, that barless prison
Discolours all with tunnel vision
Sunsetter
Nymphetamine
Sick and weak from my condition
This lust, a vampyric addiction
To her alone in full submission
None better
Nymphetamine

Nymphetamine, nymphetamine
Nymphetamine girl
Nymphetamine, nymphetamine
My nymphetamine girl

Wracked with your charm
I am circled like prey
Back in the forest
Where whispers persuade
More sugar trails
More white lady laid
Than pillars of salt
(Keeping Sodom at night at bay)

Fold to my arms
Hold their mesmeric sway
And dance to the moon
As we did in those golden days

Christening stars
I remember the way
We were needle and spoon
Mislaid in the burning hay

Bared on your tomb
I am a prayer for your loneliness
And would you ever soon
Come above unto me?
For once upon a time
From the binds of your holiness
I could always find
The right slot for your sacred key

Six feet deep is the incision
In my heart, that barless prison
Discolours all with tunnel vision
Sunsetter
Nymphetamine
Sick and weak from my condition
This lust, a vampyric addiction
To her alone in full submission
None better
Nymphetamine

Sunsetter
Nymphetamine
None better
Nymphetamine

Nymphetamine, nymphetamine
Nymphetamine girl
Nymphetamine, nymphetamine
My nymphetamine girl

I just went to an orientation Tuesday. It was really boring. All they did was show the kids around the school..and talk about the clubs and they wouldn't shut up about 'no backpacks' they think we're gonna carry guns..and can't wear chains, tank tops..other stuff on the dress code.. School is staring for me tomorrow..Which really sux but at least I'm gonna be out of the house...(I saw alotta preps there...And I don't think I'll be enjoying the year at school very much)

I was reading that new Harry Potter book that just came out.. I finished it last night. It was sad.. Dumbledore had died...I was balling throught that part...It was an okay book..not as good as the Anne Rice books...but it was okay.

GOT DUMPED!!! I bet you anything he's not sad..or emotional anymore...I feel so bad..I am idiot for ever going out with him.

I feel abit better than a did the past few days...kinda... I miss all of my friends. They're still out on vacation. I didn't go anywhere this summer.. I'm not alowwed to go anywhere at all..(my dad's really strict)..i'm not even allowed to have friends over..or spend the night...stuff like that.. My friends say my parents need to get their underwear out of their asses...

gotta go..update later

I feel like hell..I think my bf's mad at me...I donno what to do. We haven't been keeping intouch lately.. and and...damn I'm so mad at myself.

Wanna hear a really short story???

Okay, here it goes...Oce Upon A Time..The End..

Did you like it? j/k

Once a upon a time...

A girl asked a boy if she was pretty, he said no

Then she asked him if wanted to be with her forever, he said no

Then she asked if he would cry if she left, he said no

The girl had heard enough. She started to walk away crying.

He grabbed her arm and looked into her eyes and  said "You're not pretty, you're beautiful. I don't want to be with you forever, I need you forever. And I wouldn't cry if you leave, I'd die." and he softly kisses her on the lips....The End

Yeah, yeah I know it sucked...I remember reading this from somewhere...So i thought it would be alright to tell it again...

Is there really such thing as heaven and hell...I'ma christian (don't worry I'm not gonna preach my religion to you...I also don't wanna piss other ppl off) and I believe...well wondering..if there really is a heaven and hell. Will I end up in one or not? Is there another place you go to if you don't go to either of them? I guess I'll have to wait to find out. If I can

I feel really depressed right now...I have a depression disorder...I know I can get really annoying when I'm depressed and suicidal. (I know, I'm being such a stereotype right now) I can get depressed and suicidal for no reason at all...(i bet you're thinking..."How fucking stupid is that!! I'm not gonna like this bitch because she thinks of suicide...She's so stupid!!!) I hurt alot of my friends by talking about that stuff.  I hurt David even more. When ppl try to talk me out of this stuff they would say you're gonna hurt alot of ppl..and make them mentally ill for the rest of their lives I always say "I know that, i'm not that stupid"  But a few hours or minutes later I would suddenly be happy. Some of my friends thought it was so annoying but they got used to it...I'll have to write later..