Definitely some good alcoholic drinks going around.

And I guess at one party I ended up strip dancing.....
Not that I have previous experience, just that a guy asked me to or something?

Because this isn't right.

It was all a bunch of bullshit until now.

I'm sorry that it took me so long to realize it.

But life is good.

It'll be short.

It was perfect... absolutely PERFECT! :D

It hurts whenever I see him with her... But then again I did what I thought was best. And deep down inside I know it was best to let him go. Even if I did help set them up it doesn't help things. I still have feelings for him and everything... But... but... I know it wasn't right. I had to end it, and it was my choice... he didn't really fight it either. So I'm just going to have to learn to get over it.

We were both confused... and... I'm not sure anymore... *Sigh*

Sometimes I wish I could fight for something I really want. But I back off... especially if it will benefit someone... a friend, relative... someone. I'd rather see them happy, than have myself be happy and watch them become depressed.

The afternoon I took a brief nap, some friends came over and we golfed out on the course, watched Super Size Me, and chilled afterwards. I thought that the surgery part was sa-weet! I don't know how Margie even thought it was a tad gross.... Sure it was with them giving facts about obesity, and him stuffing his face like that. ...I just thought it would have been worse. LoL. (Yes it was my first time seeing it).

Gotta get going.

I honestly don't feel the same way he does.... and I'm hoping if I just show friendship towards him... he'll get the picture? Highly doubt it though.

Because it just seems that my friendly nature towards guys (especially) seems to send them the wrong message that I find them more than a friend... and leads to confusion. I don't mean to "play mind games" or whatever. I'm just typically an easy-going, and generous person. Nothing else.

Some seem to realize this... and others... well they're a lost case. But this often leads me to being called a tease.

Which I resent, because it is not in my interest to try and be a "tease" and tag along guys. I think it's horrible that girls do that... and even worse when a guy knows he's being dragged along and goes with it.

For you guys out there. When a girl honestly says she wants to be friends, SHE DOES! It doesn't always mean that "well I'm saying I want to be friends, but in reality I don't". That would go under playing "mind games" again. And basically I like to keep things simple, clear and concise, and most of all honest.... definitely in a relationship.

Seems that some guys just don't notice that, and don't know me as well as I would have hoped, or that they just think I spew BS from my mouth. I think I'm just going to stop right here... otherwise this whole post will be of me ranting on about guys.... I seem to know exactly what my friends should do in their relationship, but come to mine I'm clueless... isn't that how it always works. ><

Got back from jetskiing, and swimming. It wasn't even 8 in the morning yet, but was over 70 degrees!! Ahhh~ another 90 degree day~!

Busy day ahead of me....

And a friend of mine is trying to set me up with another guy... she claimed he was 'SO CUTE', I disagree. I saw his picture... and I must say we have an 180 degree difference in view on guys.

I just wish she would stop trying to set me up with these guys..... -.-

I guess I'm waiting... or "pining away" till this fall just to see what happens between Mister J and me.

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