Wow got through another one of those episodes. Fell out again. Sad very..  He said his friends pulled a prank on me, and had nothing to do with it. WHO THE FUCK would joke around being dead. Like wtf it's so fucking idiotic. Told myself if he's fucking joking. So fucking blocked cuz it wasn't funny.  I actually cried thinking it was all my fault. I freaked out   God i'm so stupid sometimes... Never Ever going to let that happen again. I am so going to get to know the fucking person before i throw those three little words at him.. I should of learned that from the relationship with Brady, but hey my mind is slow it's working step by step.

But anyways, everything is all good now.   Jacob said something to me this morning and , it's a secret xD. But i'm glad he said it   cuz were still best friends! xD muahahahaha. So awesome to talk to, i've actually been friends for him for awhile. And really trust him.   Prolly won't exchange him for anything in the world :D. But yeah this morning was a good morning. =  Post again later. MaYbe....

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Wow met somone awesome yesterday. And moved in a direction pretty quick. And it seems that i've fallen yet again. I just hope this time...i won't fall out of it.   We've known each other for two days :O   isn't that awesome lol.   it's awkward cuz it dosn't usually happen that fast.  But hey love is different for everyone. Anyways just needed to remind myself of the day I met him and the day he told me he loved me xD.   Anyways goodnight!

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 Well I've seem to piss my mom off. And she's having yet another spaz attack. Of course I don't blame her. I am an awful child to make her suffer so much.  Maybe it's better if I just ran offlike my cousin did. Or suicide. Then she would have one less child to deal with. She's always said that she wish we were dead. Never really thought she meant that. But I think back sometimes. It's like she's trying to clue us in. But she probably dosn't mean it, atleast that's what i keep telling myself. Anyways I seem like such a burden to her. And there are times where I plan my death. But there are things that are worth living for. But time passes and yet I've no idea what I want in life. What I'd like to achieve in life. I'm a useless person really. So there's really point to my existance.

Maybe I should die. All I cause is trouble in this world. What's the point? Nothing great really to remember me by. Maybe I won't run away or die. Dieing would just be taking the easy way out.. I won't run away cuz that's yet another easy way. I should just take nothing with me. And wander off. Tell them that i'm dead. And theres no need to call the police. Just run a funeral and forget. Well I guess i'll stop typing now. Tears are getting to me.

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Woot! My computer back up and running. Everything is fine right now. I did a math test and got stuck on two questions! >_<" I couldn't remember how the formula went.. It was so confusing... . But anyways I'm passing all my classes. And I had just found out i'm in a choir!! and I missed 4 classes already. Queer.. I never remembered signing up. But It's only on Wednesdays and Thursdays. So I'll have time to game as well "sing".   Although I'm a bit scared. I havn't been in a choir since what? Grade 6? Lol. So sad. I can't even sing . But since i joined. I should attend.

 Love..Right now isn't too good at the moment. But It's alright not all people need love to survive . And I'm one of those. Ahhh, just took a shower :). I feel so warm and clean. And relaxed. I don't know what to think about. Probably starting a new webpage. But I havn't typed html in such a long ass time. I don't think I can remember how. But Thank god I still have my previous work and copy and paste works as well.

I think that's all I need to update on!

 -M-M-M- Sayonara!

 Wow life is passing by fast. And everything has been alright, except there are still some minor problems. But they can be fixed. Let me see school starts in 2 days. But I'm ready for it. No more boys to distract me. I hope. Lol, but anyways. My life has been not so bad. I'm healthy. I'm neither happy nor sad. And Life has been normal so far. I don't have any hatred for anyone whatsoever. Nor do I have love for anyone. Except Maybe a few probably safe to say my friends.   Their...Cool. But are still crazy dorks  . And I love them dearly.

Nothing BIG has really happened in my life recently. Except making some new friends. Example: Friend#1- Ralley, Very nice person to talk to and sweet. And too great of a friend not that, that's a bad thing. Friend#2-Manny, friend of Ralley's , A perverted male, but very funny "sometimes" :). He loves his ladies thats for sure. And that's it for examples.

Oh heres some minor, and not too major of news. I met REDHEAD again!! I havn't seen him in the longest time. He's starting college now, everyone that I seem to know is starting college. As for me I'm starting highschool. Lol. Which is kinda weird. But it's alright. Life is good, it was kind of unexpected for me to meet redhead again. Was crazy we met almost at the same spot, just a bit further but i can say pretty close. Must be faith. Lol. Faith..Is there really any? xD? Who knows. Anyways That's all I'm going to update about my life.

Peace out -xoxo

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