soo yeah things are actually begging to look slightly better, my dad doenst hate me so much anymore, i think, and he was actually happy last night for like the 1st time since before my grandfather died... it just finally seems that everything going on in the past few months, starting with december, is finally blowing over, and i dont feel like shit everytime im home, its actually not so bad to be here anymore, idk i just feel a lot better, when everyone is in a good mood, i really hate to be around people when they are depressed or pissed off... idk... so yeah anyways, i was thinkin about what nat wrote about missing all our memories our childhood, and i really miss it too i mean those were some great times playing in that nasty river next to my house, sneaking into the country club to look for trutles and the giant fish that swim upstream every spring, or at least they seemed giant to us then neway, those were all great times, building forts in my basement, me and michelle used to make up random songs and record them on my tapeplayler (RHBH) we called ourselves, we thought we were guna be famous..HA!, wow, but those were awesome memories, and i know im never going to forget them, me n my friends, were crazy , we used to sneak out in the middle of the night and walk to CVS, WHY? beats the hell out of me, but he WE thought we were cool, and thats all that really mattered, WE had fun with it, even if it was dumb... oh well..i think thats kindsa the way everyone needs to look at life, if THEY THEMSELVES think its something awesome... but childhood is over now, it's time to face the facts, that next year i have to decided important shit, like what college i wanna go to, as of right now i have noooo freakin clue, i dont even know wtf i wanna major in... eh... whatevever, idk i just felt the need to post about all of this... today was a pretty good day for once, i just kinda felt like in a better mood overall, just cuz things home are begginning to seem better, my dad said i could get my liscense if i get all Bs on my report card, which looks like it might acutally happen :-D, well i gg Val is here ... more later maybe*

so my plan worked thanks to steph braz and i avoided being grounded for a very long time... haha to everyone that has no idea what im talking about cuz i dont feel like writing it on here but yeah thats all i had to say ...

finally this fucking week is over, it seemed to drag on forever with all the snow and crap, we are so going to have school until like the end of june :-, oh well, yeah sooo today was like the suckiest day ever...i really just hope i can pull this one off, cuz if i cant you wont be seeing me for quite some time... wish me luck.

-manda

mondays suck... so yeah hmm this weekend was really boring , went the mall friday and stayed home saturday cuz my mom didnt want me to go newhere... then sunday spent the entire day fixing my computer, which was a bitch , but hey it works now and its like super fast cuz i got a new hard disk and more memory hmm... so yeah neways ... school was pointless as usualy i really dont have anything interesting to talk about so yeah im out i guess...

yeah...idk mondays suck at life...this weekend was madd boring i really did like nothing, but oh well ... whatever... today was so boring i went through most of the day thinking that we were guna get out early cuz you know its waterbury and they lets us out early for no reason, but we didnt get out early so yeah it sucked, and i fuckin hate chemistry!!!... yeah neways ... after school i went home and basically did nothing, then i went to stefs at like 6 and i had to live at like 9:30 cuz my mom i stupid, o well whatever ... life sucks and then you die right? ... 3 + 1/2 months till summer... god i cant fucking wait, ive been counting the days till summer since school started... mm i need a life.. yeah neways idk im about to go to sleep, cuz its like 12:30 and tomm is deff gunna be a snow day sooo yeah im out for now..payce

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