I hope to die fast.

I feel a lot of pain.

I lost a lot of blood.

I its all red over here.

I cant seem to think.

I am just writing in blood.

I hafto stop looking and do something:

I want to die.

I want to die.

I want to die.

I want to die.

I want to die.

I want to die.

I want to die.

I want to die.

I want to die.

I want to die.

I want to die.

I want to die.

I want to die.

I want to die.

I want to die.

I want to die.

I want to die.

I want to die.

I want to die.

I want to die.

I want to die.

I want to die.

Blood still keeps coming out........

Why dont i just die.

Ok , as you know my "SN" is LezoaN.

And ,yeah lez stands for lesbean.

And oan stands for "the one".

But im neither one of those things, uh. Well, i had one girlfriend back at "4" grade. ( It doesnt count ). So you shall stop asking me that kind of "shit". ( And the one? nope, im just a lost soul.)

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So...  Divinity say that i should try to be more happy. "and so  did". But ,you see. Every time i try to be happy 'hapends' bad things. ( or is it just me who try to be happy at the wrong time ). "I did try today , and it ended whit ( one in my class hurt himself today. Yeah , i usaly dont go to the school anymore. But, i was trying to do something right and be happy. But it was all sadness in the school today.  = ( 

Every time i try , i fail. My life sucks more than most of your lifes.

"I'm sad of things that have 'hapend' in the past that i can forget. ( belive me ,i have tryd to forget it 200 time. "not a surtan number").

I wich i could forget the past and move on.

But i can. ( i know im repeting myself now. )

I'll just sitt back and try not to think of "things". Please dont make me tell the past. It makes me so sad and angry. = (

Im gonna listen to:  Soilwork - Departure Plan So i guess i'll hear from you guys later. = /

Life is a waste of time ,so why dont just take it.

I dont se the porpous in it. "do you?"

Why not end the pain now ,and it will be over, no more vorrys,pain,happyness and all that shit. Why just dont take it now and end things.

I'v ben having those toughts all my life.

Its a "mirakel" that im still alive.

Im Camilla ,and like it says in my "Profile" i dont like liers and people who help the liers.

Thats 'baseicly' couse i'v ben lieing to al my life. I dont take the to me that much. " I dont see why people lie so much" i'v never lied about something ,and im not going to lie about things.

You people might think of me as a trouble kid or a FREAK that have these thoughts.

Well, its up to you to think. "im just acting"

I joined becaouse i think this will keep me off the thoughts of killing myself and cutting myself. "I do that verry 'ofhen'. "

Hope you can be a good friend ,if you want to be friend whit a person whitout life?

Thats all for now. 

Signed: 'Sadness'