Yes Yes...  I'm finally back...

I know how much all of you hate me, or did at one time, but I still don't think I care... ^_^

Sarah and I broke up on the 6th of this month....*sighs and shrugs*  Times change, people change, who gives a fuck anymore?  'The Wheel weaves as the Wheel wills...'

I'm now going out with a wonderful girl from church, named JayCelyn.  Shes about 5'7-5'8, long blonde hair, bluish-green eyes, and AND she loves video gaming...  It's awesome... XD!  Pretty, and shes a video gamer...  ^_^

She's 17, and already going to be starting her first year at Webster (StL) this year, but by then she'll be 18; that's still early, tho... ^_^

...For all of you who are wondering, yes, I am only 16, but age means nothing, now does it?  Don't get all perverted and shit, cuz it's nothing like that... XD

She speaks Japanese, almost fluently, and really enjoys Ayumi Hamasaki's and Utada Hikaru's music...  Sound familiar? ^_^

OH!  She sings opera too, and does an INCREDIBLE job of it...  It's amazing...

Let's see... What else has happened since...Last time I was here...

...Not much of anything, and seeing as to how much of a boring, depressing, 'loser-life' I lead, it doesn't surprise me that not too much has actually occured...

If vegetarians eat vegetables, what do humanitarians eat?  Or what about veteranarians?

Spent the day with my SarahBear and 2 of her friends...   hehehe   I looked like such a pimp...

Some loser jack ass sent me a pm and didnt leave a name cuz hes a pussy....   You know who you are you foolish child...   Get a life you moron...  Send me all the shit you want, i dont give a flying fuck!!!       AND YOURE STILL A DUMB ASS!!!!!

...Bipolar Disorder sux...  I hate doctors...  Any ppl on here wanting to be a doctor... I hate you...  Theyre nothing but scoundrels...

Spent another day with my SarahBear...  She is my anti-depressant... She fixes anything...  I love her...

6 months come tomorrow!!!  Hooray!!  I LOVE YOU, SARAHBEAR!!!!!!!

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Clothes: Blue Jeans, Dark Blue Shirt

Favorite Song: Anything 80's Hair Metal...

Eating: Cheddar Broccoli Rice

Favorite Game: Diablo 2 or StarCraft

Reading:  The Fires of Heaven - Robert Jordan

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"And her princes within are as wolves tearing the prey, shedding blood and taking innocent lives for their own dishonest gain..."  --Ezekiel 22:27

yeah.... Im back...  Not much to say...

Going on 6 months with my SarahBear....

Not much else.........

Im 'sick' again...  W00tyz!

If anyone at all knows any good MMORPGs, can you place them in the feedback thing for me??????

So like I know a guy who knows a girl and likes her, but he wont talk to her to find out anything, and wont let anyone try...  Hes afraid of his own feelings, man!  Isnt that sad?

>Sigh<  Im bored    Idno how long this bloogs gonna be...

Anyone here like to play Starcraft???  Or Diablo 2?  Thats cool...  I do, although B-Net is becoming quite a drag...  I used to play CounterStrike and TFC and HalfLife and all those...  Maybe I should get back into those....  Old games, but very good...  I love the sniping   LoL

>sigh<

This is dumb, but hey, it takes up some of my time:::

Clothes: Blue Jeans (and the boxers LoL)

Favorite Song: I Don't Wanna Know  - Mario Winans and P. Diddy

Eating: Nothing, but put it on here to look funky :-P

Favorite Game: Rilphia Saga or StarCraft

Reading:  The Shadow Rising - Robert Jordan

Ok Im done, this is pointless, as is all things in life... >shrugs< live it whatever way you want..... :-P

I LOVE YOU MY SARAHBEAR!!!!!!!!

Ojikeru, the bunny I had, died today :-(  I was feeding it well, and loving it, end everything...  It just kinda died on me..... :-(

Its all the ppl I don't likes' faults... They did this!! :-P:-P

I love you SarahBear!!!!

Well  didnt get to blog last night cuz i didnt get home from being with Sarah until like 10:30, then all we did was chat on the net till we got tired...  LoL    We had our picnic, then we just strolled around the park and made out on the benches in front of the ppl passing by... :-P  j/k!    We did have a lot of fun tho... :-)   She wants to go to the park again next saturday :-P

Ppl are still dumb...

I love you Sarah Henderson, my future wife! :-P

OMFG    I didnt get to see my SarahBear tonight, but tomorrow were gonna have a picnic.... :-P  I cant wait to see her again!  Were gonna eat, and dance, and just talk....   lol   its gonna be great tho......

How art yall?  Im ...chillin...

Gonna try to get a job at the pizza place :-P

mmmmm...pizza.... :-P

I get to see my SarahBear tomorrow and Saturday! *dances

I cant wait...

PPLZ still bug me...   :-P

I LOVE YOU SARAH!!!

I hate ppl....  Noone in particular...  Just people in general...   Mainly large amounts of stupid ass foolish ppl...  Like school...  So many stupid ppl there...   And those who like to blow things out of proportion...  Those wanna-bes... Those over-achievers.... Those under-achievers... Those who like to think too highly of themselves... Those who think they can get what they want when they want... Those preps... Those sluts... Those...  I HATE THEM ALL!!!!!!!

I want my SarahBear...  Shes the only one I ever want to be around anymore...  I miss her so much...   I have to wait until Friday........  ::sigh::  I love her so much.............  Its like I can only find solace in her presence anymore...  By myself, I am merely incomplete...

We finally know what love is...   I love my uncle to death for what he has shown me:

Love is not chemistry that keeps two ppl together for a lifetime, the chemistry fades away, but is replaced by a deeper, truer love...  A love fueled by trust, faith, and communication...

We felt the chemistry wearing away, and we thought we were falling apart...  We were merely growing even closer together and didnt realize it b/c we didnt know what was going on; what were supposed to be looking for...  We just need to fix up our communication...

I am destined to make my life with her, and her with mine...

*cries uncontrollably in happiness

We found the answer.....   the chemistry has faded in our relationship, but we have gone to the next step... The chemistry nearly brings us to find each other, but it wears away and is replaced with a stronger, deep, more faithful and trusting love...  we jst didnt know how to look for it b/c this is our first real relationship.....  perhaps our only................

Well...  Weve talked out our problem, and we believe weve found a solution...  I think we are going to make it through this; we both know we want to and need to, so there should be no problem at all, right?

I think were going to break up....  it hurts so bad... i want to die... 

I cant tell if its a cad, or a happy crying, but its crying...

Sarah and I have finally both come out and admitted that we feel our relationship is dwindling...

We believe we have come to a conclusion, and that we can fix our problem; it surely is one to be fixed without breaking up...

I do not want to lose her love, and her mine...  I dont want to be lost again.................

wtf/e it was....   Shes either hiding it a bit better (i still feel something is wrong), or shes just....  idno

fuck it    i give up trying    just act like everything ok and try to make her feel better....

I love her so very much..........................

DEPRESSION SUCKS ALL ASS

I dont know what the fuck I did, but I'm getting sick and tired of finding words placed into my god damn mouth...  I've been supposedly not trusting Sarah, and next thing you know, shes throwing a fit because I don't think she's ok... She's all fucked up..  I don't think that, I just feel maybe something is wrong when she just signs off abruptly and gives me god damn attitude when I fucking ask what the fuck is wrong!  SHE CANT EVEN TELL ME!!!!!  ğRAGEĞ  WHY IN THE GOD DAMN HELL ARE WOMEN SO LIGHT-BLINDED AND WOOL-HEADED?!?!?

I got to spend the day with my SarahBear!  *dances*   Were not riding the city bus again...  I swear the only reason the busses are still in service is because there are people too big to fit inside thair own cars....   *:-&

Lets see...  We went bowling...  Ate chinese for lunch... Went and saw Hidalgo (Good Movie! :-P)...And then we went to the mall....

So much fun! YaY! :-D

Were going to do something next weekend too!  Things are finally looking up in our relationship!!!  ****dances****  I still didnt sing to her tho...  I did at the bus stop, but too low for her to hear, and I havent told her...  Just starting off slow, then eventually Im going to belt it out :-D

And the... whatever they were...  Yeah...  Discontinued....  They aint working anyways.........

I get to be with my SarahBear today!  YAY!!! Were going to be together for almost 6 hours!!!  ****dances****

I love her so much, and just being with her adds a part of me I feel I have never really had until I met her, thus making me feel whole everytime I am within her radiant presence...

I get to feel whole again today!  YaY! *dances again*

Like the title?

Yeah, Im bored as hell, so Im writing another blog in the morning...  Not like anything interestings going to happen in my day to write about anyways...  Im a loser....

I get to see my SarahBear again tomorrow...  I cant wait to be with her again....  We havent been able to spend all that much time together, but lately the situation have been improving...  Were trying to be with each other at least once a week, for it used to be almost every other, if that, and so far, weve been able to do so...

Senseless Reality... ... ...  No questions...  Just feed me back... :-P

My stupid alarm clock reset itself last night for some gay reason, and I didnt wake up in time...  My dad comes down, and gives me a 'sick-day'!!  Hes never done that cool kinda shit!!  YAY!!! *so happy Im scared

Ok...  the concept of the day is:

Standard Insubordination...

Not like anyone is going to actually read this, but if you do, what do you think it means?

Does this have any impact on society today, or am I just making up shit in my delusions? :-P:-P:-P

Okies...   Nothing to say, but Im bored...

Hey!  School SUX!

YEAH!

Oh yes...  My 'FORUMS'...  Ok.... heres a thought to ponder on.............::::

Illogical Dimensionalism...

It sounds wierd, but they all are going to, as you soon will learn...

Anyways...  What does it mean to you?

What kind of meaning do you think lies beyond the surface of the words themselves???????????

Ive been writing an anime-themed story, The Chronicles of the Meiji, for about a year now...

It's kinda of like an Inuyasha-Rurouni Kenshin mix...  LoL Sword fights...Magic...HalfDemons...Outlaw-type Swordsmen.......

A man named Jun Hayazashi is about to sit down to dinner and assassins break into his house, killing off his son, daughter, and wife, but sparing him.  He sets out searching for answers, and is found trekking all across the land of Minarenai...  He soon meets 3 other Meiji and a Sprite, and learns of his true destiny; he must fight alongside his companions agains the soon-to-be-arisen Arch-Angel Artemecion, Nasaj Lasseratimus, and his Disciples...

Of (an estimation of) about 35-40 chapters, I have written only 15, and I find it turning out far better than any other story I have ever written before...

I do believe I am going to attempt to get it published with Tor Publications....  I can honestly say that I feel this is a seller.........

I caught a Brush Rabbit today...  I didn't know that their mothers won't care for them anymore if they are handled.....  I'm an ass...  I feel so bad...  I gotta take care of it now...  Maybe I'll domesticate it, and keep it as a pet...?

Well...  I got to see Sarah today...  Yay...  WE didn't plan ahead, so we just ended up mainly driving around...

I've been promising this song to her, and that I would sing it to her...  I'm not even entirely sure it means as much to her as it does to me if I were to actually do it, but I think shes doubting I'll do it now...

I was supposed to sing it to her last time we were together, and I couldn't, mainly because we were short on time...

Well...  I tried today, AND I COULDN'T DO IT!!  I started it off too low, and instead of trying it again, it tore me up to much...  I felt like such an ass...  I STILL DO!!

...I'm not going to give up...

Well...  Its been almost a week without seeing Sarah, my girlfriend...  Were still not even sure if were going to see each other this weekend...  I hope we do, I miss her so much...  >sigh<

Turns out a lot of PPL here like Ayumi Hamasaki...

I saw someone and I thought, HOLY SHIT!  Now thats rare...     ITS NOT THAT RARE AT ALL!!  LoL   Sry Chenata  *^_)*

N2ME...  Cyall

o btw...

This is my website....

www.freewebs.com/nasajlasseratimus

Well....   Im bored, so I'm writing a 'blog'...

Not that theres is anything to say, so I have just successfully wasted about 67.9 seconds of my time....

So I guess a blog is like a diary thing??  Well....  Wth heel does it matter?  Why does Dragid want to advertise ppl's business to ppl?  Do they think that the users actually care?  Noone needs to care about anyone elses business...  We all have our own separate problems...  Its just like school dances...  The damn school dont need to get into you business with your relationships...

*shrugs

Oh well...  Im a poet...  None o' y'all knew it...  Maybe Ill start a mini-forum...  Starting soon I am going to start a chain of 'philosophical debates'...  Dont know what I mean?  Neither do I yet...  Well all know when I get it established, I guess...