I hate being 15. I can't do anything. Tomorrow, I have to take emergency contraception pills. Yay. My friend took them and she felt really sick. Anyway, today was an adventure. Lol. It was a very interesting day. My life is so wierd. I hope no one reads my blog. It is very wierd. Maybe they wouldn't belive the stuff I go through anyway..

Oh, this is so painful. I don't think the pain can get any worse. Should I just stop living? Because that would make things better. I am madly in love with Jason though. I'm not afraid of death. I'm just afraid of what I'll leave behind when I die. The only thing I will leave behind is Jason. I don't care about anything else. I don't love anyone like I love Jason. That's all I have to live for. Why do people do this? Do they enjoy doing this. To be more specific : Why do parents do this? I HATE parents. I will never be a parent. They don't understand. I hope they burn in hell forever. I can never look at his family again. How can they do this to me? They are fucking sick. Anyone would think the same. They are just plain sick. That's all. I hate them so much. I can never be happy until I am allowed to do what I want. I hate being 15. I hate being made fun of because I'm a vegan for personal and health choices. I hate everything except for animals and Jason.

There was a 2 hour delay for school today. I didn't go. My fiance said he wouldn't go either. He's still not online. Gawd. I wonder if he's still sleeping. We went to bed at like 10 P.M. If he's still sleeping right now, he already has about 13 hours of sleep. o.O I also had the scariest dream. I have this disorder where I can't get over something really traumatic in my life that happened when I was about 6-7. That's why I go to conseling. I dream about that sometimes. I've never told anyone about it. Only 2 people know about it that were there with me. It happened on Halloween. Anyway, I forgot that name of the disorder. Oh, well..

Yesterday, I dared my fiance to piss in his brother's juice so, he did! OMG! It was so funny. He took a sip too! XDDDDDD We told like everyone! XDDDDDD Yeah, that was a little mean.

Note to self : Go to Japan with fiance, go to Hello Kitty factory, and hug everyone we see because they made our dream come true. This will happen when we have enough money too. =P

This is unbelievable! Yesterday, I had an OKAY day! Nothing bad happened! WOW! OMG! Today, everything is going nice too.. so far.

I'm sick today. I didn't go to school. I feel weak. Anyway, I hate going to the doctor's. It SUCKS. I had to constantly hide my cut up arm. Boring day. It sucks. I refused to go to my fiance's house today because of lot's of reasons. No, nothing about him. I love him so much. It's his wierd family. I can't stand watching him get hit by his brother all the time. That's one of them..

I picked up a razor the wrong way and cut my thumb really bad. It hurts. I'm an idiot. I would agree on that with anyone.

Wow. We have a snow day. How odd. I also got up late today. It's around 6:30 A.M. I kind of knew we were going to have a snow day. That's why. Anyway, that's all I have to say so far. I really hope this is going to be a good day..

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