*sigh* I'm so sad, I found out today, that my best friend, Justin, who was like the only person in 6th, half of 7th (he was gone the second half), and 8th grade, oh and the first quarter in 9th when I was homebound from school, is moving to Wisconsin. I know we haven't talked in like a month, and not really that much since around january, and have only seen each other 6 times since I left school (5 days when I tried going back but it didn't work and we went to a fair together once). I mean but hes still my best friend. And I'll really miss him. And the fact that hes my only friend within a 45-50 minute drive from my house, well it doesn't help. *flop*

ANYWAYS well other then that. My father tried to make me and my Mother leave the room so HE could watch the video of that guy being beheaded on TV but my mother and me yelled at him so he'd change the channel, gods he such an ass.

***THINGS TO THANK ACHAEA FOR***
****IN NO PARTICULAR ORDER****
1)Increasing the time it takes me to type stuff in (meaning I type FASTER)
2)I now type a bit better, with less spelling mistakes
3)I can now read Romeo & Juliet and actually be able to understand what half of it says (which is good since I have to rewrite some scenes for the ESE classes to put on a proformance, which means decoding old english into 'streak' english as my teacher puts it)
4)I have more friends now, granted I can only actually 2 OOC (if you don't play you have no need to know what OOC is) more then like once a year.
5)It has increased my vocabulary with words like: heh, bloody hell (i'm a southerner so I normally wouldn't have learned it, and I once said ya'll and bloody hell in the same sentence, people just looked at me weird), gods (I now say gods alot instead of god), and uhhhh lemme find another word example... oh well I know theres more
6)I can now tell you what time it is in some other time zones and can convert other time zones from GMT too
7)OH it's made my math skills better, cause of you have to add and subtract and stuff to figure out how much gold you need for something!
**WELL THAT'S ALL I CAN THINK OF TO THANK ACHAEA FOR RIGHT NOW**
*MORE TO COME LATER!*

JUST in case your interested I've been writting in my live journal some more then I have here, my live journal account name is, Shamanicchick. And my xanga that I tend to use every now and then is billabongbabe13.

TRA-LA-LA-LA-LA-LA-LA-LA LITTLE HAMSTERS BIG ADVENTURES HAM HAM HAMTARO

DORA DORA DORA THE EXPLORER!!!!!!! SWIPPER NO SWIPPING SWIPPER NO SWIPPING SWIPPER NO SWIPPING!!!!!

BOB THE BUILDER CAN WE FIX IT BOB THE BUILDER YES WE CAN!

MASH BANANA MASH BANANA, MASH BANANA MASH BANANA, HOT POTATOE HOT POTATOE, HOT POTATOE HOT POTATOE, WEEEEEEE WIGGY WIGGY WIGGY WEEEEEEEEEEEE WIGGY WIGGY WIGGY BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH WEEEEEEEEEE WIGGY WIGGY WIGGY WEEEEEEEE WIGGY WIGGY WIGGY

Oh joy, allergy season, as if I didn't already feel sick, here come my allergies. SO now instead of just feeling sick to my stomach and a small sore throat, now I have a sinus headache and a really itchy and stuffy nose, itchy eyes, and itchy ears, and an itchy throat. Oh yes life is soooo great!

ACTUAL CONVERSATION... ERR.... HAPPENING

me: WTF MY BOOBS DON'T FIT IN MY BATHING SUIT *tantrum*

my gay poodle of doom muffin: *BARK* *SHAKE* *SPASM*

my father: can you please not yell about that stuff, it scares the dog

me: DOES IT LOOK LIKE I CARE! NOW I HAVE TO BUY A NEW BILLABONG BATHING SUIT, FREAKING LIKE $50!

my father: shut up your scaring the dog!

my gay poodle of doom muffin: *SPASM*

Don't ya hate it when you don't feel good, so you don't do something and then you get in troble for it? I -REALLY- hate it when that happens.

I'm really pissed cause this MUD I play (if you don't know what a mud or achaea is don't bother reading this) achaea keeps screwing up and shutting down, and when it's on it's super laggy. Also something else is screwed THE WEBSITE FOR IT WON'T WORK. Last time this happened the game screwed up, and we had to go into this 'dream' where nothing we did, levels we got, people we met would never have happened afterwards, and that time it took 10 hours for the game to get back up! I'd be so pissed if that happened again, cause I have no life and this game is the only thing I ever do other then post on blogs... and I post WHILE playing the game! *TANTRUM* GAH THIS IS PISSING ME OFF!

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I have this really bad headache, and ever since Friday I haven't been able to walk straight. Well besides the fact that me and my friends that were at this festival with me think we got drugged... yes we think the mixed nuts we got were drugged... but then it WAS a hippie-type festival. Also on Saturday morning I woke up had cuts on my upper right thigh they were alot worse looking yesterday, now they are barely there. Thing is I don't remember getting them and I remember what we did all night so I know I didn't *cough* so -anything-  *cough* but I still wanna know where the hell these cuts came from *shrug* anyways... Ya I had alot of fun at the festival... I got BIT by 2 guys.... ON MY TOE :D ya sorry had to do that. Well I guess that's enough for right now...

How stupid could I be
Hes the only one for me
Hes like a damn disease
Hes no good for me
But all I seem to think of
Is him
All I seem to see
Is him
How do you cure some thing that doesn't seem to want to be cured
What if there is no cure
I wish there was
For I want to move on
To not feel bad about things
To just... feel free again

"how stupid could I be
a simpleton could see
that you're no good for me
but you're the only one I see"

Stupid- Sarah McLachlan

OK sorry if I sound mean or bitchy, but for you people who yelled at me for being depressed... this is just how I write my poems.. they tend to be depressing since I am a manic depressive... but I'm hoping you can get over it

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No longer do I know myself
No longer do I know what I need
No longer do I know what I want
No longer do I know what I strive for
No longer do I know what I should do
No longer am I the person I was quiet content with
No longer do I want to be the person I am becoming
Now I am this person
Whom I don't know
What should I do
When there is nothing I can do to stop it
When there is nothing that I can do to change myself
To stop this transformation
What should I do
Who should I turn to
If I can't even turn to myself

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