Well it's been awhile since I've posted here... nothing really new, just got off of a four day weekend...

I can't seen to shut my girlfriend out of my head... it's been awhile since we've spoken, and even though it was a good talk... I dunno, somethin' has been buggin' me. A "friend" of her's, who is NOT credible whatsoever, tells me she's cheating on me... now I should never believe a word he says since he's a stinkin' liar... but it still bugs me. I dunno... It shouldn't... it's not like my girlfriend to do such a thing. I've known her for 2 years now, and I should know her well enough to know that she wouldn't do something like that... yet I'm still worried. Heh, I guess we'll just have to wait and see... in any case, I had a talk about it all with my god-sister, Helen... I started to get frustrated and tell Helen how "I don't give a fuck about my girlfriend" no more... and how I don't "give two shits" about her no more... but Helen simply said "Yes you do... you always will. That's just how you are"... and it's so true... ugh... *sigh* I dunno. I shouldn't be torturing myself over all this, and yet I do, because I care for my girl far too much. I'm not sure whether it should be considered as loyalty or stupidity =P

Okay, it's noon now... midday... lol and I haven't gotten anything accomplished whatsoever... feels like such a waste of a day so far really. Meh, it's all good. It's just one of those "lazy tuesdays" I suppose.

I got an appointment with my program counselor later on anyway... gonna work out my college schedule and all that good stuff. Looking forward to it... yeah.... right... *sigh* then there's work... as usual, and I'm the only freakin' person at my post, so I do all the freakin' work, and it's a whole lot of work for 3 hours of it... blah, again, not looking forward to that for sure...

eh... well not quite, but I'd like to think that today, being Wednesday, is gonna be very important.

I've got two job interviews this afternoon... one at 1pm, the other at 5pm... the first for a Sales Representative position... which is right up my alley since I'm a very good salesperson... and the second for a Manager Trainee position... which again, is also right up my alley since I want to be the boss... lol. But yeah, anyway, they both pay great, and that's what I'm really needing right now... I have to pay for school, not to mention save for future plans to move out and all that... I've got plans for my future... but to be honest, I think I'm losing direction... I'm not sure what my future holds just yet... at least not right now anyway, with the way things are going. The way I see it... the world is an open book and I'm writing the story as I go along... of course I retain my hopes that the future will end up as I hope it will... but I don't want to be surprised and devastated if it doesn't.

Well anyway, I got my clothes all ironed out... I'm leaving early tomorrow to buy a tie =P I want something nicer, lol... I tend to buy new ties now and then... they're just so cool, hard to resist =P In any case, I'm crossing my fingers... i want both jobs to make me an offer, so I can take my pick... =) hehe, I'm greedy damnit.... anyway, I'm really hoping on this... I really want either of these jobs as a stepping stone towards a future that will hopefully be ideal.

Okay, so last night was a lot of fun... I don't think I've laughed quite as much as I did last night in the longest time...

Amy, who's my lil god-sis but also really cool friend, and I went out and just chilled. lol, when two people are bored, I think that there's a compelling force to do just about anything... so yeah, we went to Karaoke... now mind you, I've only EVER been to Karaoke once in my life. It wasn't really a bad experience, so I figured it'd be cool to do that with her... lol, we had a lot of fun though... spent like 3 hours there, just singing and laughing. The best was when we were singing to "Baby Boy" by Beyonce and Sean Paul... lol, hence the "Dutty yeah! Dutty yo!"... well yeah, I can't rap worth shit, so I ruined that song good =) lol, but it was pure jokes. We got a great laugh outta that one... we had spend 3 hours there, so by the time we had left, we had sung tons of songs... My faves especially were "Again" by Janet, and "Angel of Mine" by Monica. We pulled duets on those, and it actually sounded really good, lol... then again, could've been the beer that was messing with our senses. She got drunk/tipsy off of three smirrnoffs, lol... disgraceful.

Anyway, we left there at about 2:30am, and paid... $108!!! I swear they were fucking ripping us off man... $25 an hour... even if it's only two people! That's such bull. We split the bill anyway, but I think she was sore about it, since she remembers it being $5 per person way back when... blah, whatever... we had a great time, so I didn't mind the bill. The laughs were worth so much more.

lol, we stubbled around downtown for a while though, talking and whatnot, about jobs and relationships and whatnot... then headed for some food, and continued to talk for another two hours. I didn't get home until about 5am... it was a great time though... We're heading to the clubs next saturday. I'm really looking forward to that.

Okay, well I've had this stupid illness for 2 days now... STILL have yet to go to a doctor... heh, well at least I made an appointment for Friday, which is tomorrow...I hate the doctor... anyway, I have to go, no matter how much I hate them..

Just finished watching the Apprentice... damnit, I wanted Kwame to win.

And finally, I've gotten my wireless network... still a few kinks here and there, but all I gots to say is that it's so much easier having it around.

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