2:45 pm
The Taste Of Ink
The Used::The Taste Of Ink
Is it worth it can you even hear me
Standing with your spotlight on me
Not enough to feed the hungry
I'm tired and I felt it for awhile now
In this sea of lonely
The taste of ink is getting old
It's four o' clock in the fucking morning
Each day gets more and more like the last day
Still I can see it coming
While I'm standing in the river drowning
This could be my chance to break out
This could be my chance to say goodbye
At last it's finally over
Couldn't take this town much longer
Being half dead wasn't what I planned to be
Now I'm ready to be free
So here I am it's in my hands
And I'll savor every moment of this
So here I am alive at last
And I'll savor every moment of this
And won't you think I'm pretty
When I'm standing top the bright lit city
And I'll take your hand and pick you up
And keep you there to so you can see
As long as you're alive and care
I promise I will take you there
And we'll drink and dance the night away
As long as you're alive
Here I am
I promise I will take you there
ive got to say that the used is one of the best bands to write the most amazingly fitting songs for what i am feeling right now. they are all i want to listen too because i feel like something is missing and they seem to fill that space, that unfillable, lonely, sorrowful plain of a space. i dont know for sure why i am feeling this way about the used and there songs, but all i know is that i dont think im ever going to stop listening to this cd. im also wondering if camila being gone having anything to do with that empty, lost area and its affiliation with the used. all i know is that something inside me changes when i listen to them. like the whole world is being displayed, and explained right there in front of me. and that all the dusty corners of my mind, all the packed boxes of my memories are being explored and found and i feel i know everything. it feels like everything is wrong but right. i dont know how i can feel this way about a couple of songs, but i do.
and then when i think about all this. that they are in what their 30s? and i am only 13 and i feel i understand every word of it all and that it fits my life so appropriatly, i think how long AM i going to be FEELING like this? if i am 13 and they are 30, that is a lot of time to be feeling how i am. maybe things are different because of the society and children are becoming more mature. or maybe i should lose all hope in ever changing and all faith in that i someday will be happy again. if i have to go through this all my life, im not going to do it. id kill myself before i could take another breath.
